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“Thank you my darling daughter for all the support you have given us .The advice you have given me also. You're my only child now and I couldn't imagine being without you .I am broken and can't ever be fixed .I want Jeff here with us again. I can't bear this, he will never be. Why did this happen? There's no answers to console my pain. I would give my life to have him back. I never thought I'd lose a child first. Did he know something we didn't? Mother did. Why didn't he turn to God for guidance? I love my son dearly. I will never hug or kiss him again. See the gleam in his eyes when I saw him the last time .Feel the warmth in his body and his heartbeat. I gave birth to this beautiful soul. He was taken from me too soon. How do I live with this? Only God can help me. I pray for Jeff every waking minute to know he is with his family and friends. He is high on the mountain, looking down at us, knowing we love him with all our hearts.” 
                          - A recent Facebook post by a family member


Writing Closer Than Your Breath had to happen. There was too much inside of me that needed to be said. Not my words but rather the words that our Great Creator God spoke to my heart in the midst of my greatest pains.

Now that the writing is done, the reading has begun. And for me, the living out of the words in the book. And hopefully, the message of HOPE in the book is spreading. My path and my heart cross daily with people whose hearts are breaking. I’ve been there. I cry with them. Sometimes I’m mad with them. Sometimes I sit and shake my head with them as they don’t understand their pain and, I confess, nor do I. I have no earthly answers for the why’s.

Every single time I hear another’s story of pain, I think back on my own worst days, some of them still with me, and I remember that I need to be very careful of the words I say and need to choose them wisely. I’m not always good at that as sometimes my emotions get in the way. I remember the story of Job and how his friends did the best by him when they simply sat with him and listened. It’s not always our words that help. It’s sometimes our willingness just to be near, whether in thought or in person.

Over the past week, I’ve jumped up and down in frustration for some ladies who’ve shared with me their desperate pains related to divorce. I want justice. I want healing. I want their pain to be over and done with. I’ve wanted to be with them to fix it all…like I’m Mighty Superwoman who can make all things right. Not.

I have one near and dear to my heart who has just lost her husband of 60+ years. How does she go forward? What does she do in the middle of the night?

Two precious friends are struggling with a terminal illness that comes straight from the pit of Hell. The daddy watches his daughter dying of the same disease that ate her mother’s life away seven years ago as we stood helplessly by after years and years of deliberate prayers. How do they face another day?

Another friend waits now to find out if she has MS. She’s never hurt anyone. She’s done everything right. How can this possibly be?

One dear one has a sister who struggles to live thanks to something called suicidality. Still another is having an especially hard time as the anniversary of the death of her brother approaches, a friend I will always hold in my heart.

Today it was a man I’ve worked with for years. He’s 64. He’s in the throes of cancer treatment and just had his prostate removed. Last week, his employer fired him. Out of the blue. What’s next for him…only one more year til he could have retired?

And then there’s the Facebook post above, one of several, by my cousin’s wife. They lost their only son unexpectedly several weeks ago. Their hearts are breaking. Dare I say especially his mother’s? You can feel her pain in her writing. It’s as if, on paper, she’s writhing, flailing her arms and screaming her pain and begging God that she wake up and find this tragedy nothing more than a terrible nightmare.

Although not exactly the same, I know what desperation feels like. Doc and I do it every day as we pray for one of our children in her own struggle. WHY, God? Why is life like this?

I don’t have a perfect answer but I do believe that we serve a perfect God. He knows our pains that cut us down to the core of our very being. And I trust He will never leave us or forsake us, especially those who are broken in heart and crushed in spirit.

If you have an opportunity to come alongside one hurting, take it with your arms and heart wide open. We need to be God’s hand and heart extended to ones in such desperate pain. Don’t worry if you don’t know what to say— “I’m sorry” is enough. And then don’t miss a chance to pray. God will hear you and He will do the rest.

Come, Lord Jesus. Our hearts are overwhelmed with pain and sorrow and worry and fear and desperation. Thank You that we can trust You. Thank You that you never leave us or forsake us. Thank You that every tear matters to you.

In Your mercy, please hear our prayers.
 
 
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This Thursday (7/17) on The Good News with Angie Austin more of faith from three chicks with a view! 

Join Angie Austin, Michelle Rahn, and me for fun on the radio! We'll have a wonderful discussion about wide variety of subjects.

The new segment airs Thursday (7/17) at 2pm (MT) on 670 KLTT and at 5pm (MT) on 810 KLVZ or stream online at www.angieaustinradio.com.

Please listen and thank you for the amazing support for Closer Than Your Breath.

What : Good news and Inspirational stories of hope and healing.. With a few laughs thrown in.

 
 
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Now this should be interesting! The Morning Mayor of Phoenix, Dave Pratt, takes on a fiery redhead full of Hope! Listen tomorrow morning (7/14). The show starts at 8:00am (PT) on Dave Pratt Live carried on The Doublewide Networks

Dave is fun, lively, and full of questions about Closer Than Your Breath. Please support the hope and listen tomorrow morning.

Update!
Here is the audio from the show!


 
 
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If you missed my first radio interview for Closer Than Your Breath, its on again! The show is called Matters of the Heart with Wendy Torres on The Word FM

The rebroadcast will be on Monday (7/7) starting at 9:30pm Central Time. If you're in the Dallas area, listen on the radio. If you're not in that area, tune in online using the radio stations player on their website. 

I was forwarded a comment from the original broadcast from listener James. He wrote “Wendy, what a very touching interview tonight. My heart was really convicted by Beth’s story. Completely different perspective of what women go through in a divorce and how much men can destroy the heart and spirit of a God woman.” 

God is using Closer Than Your Breath in ways I never imagined. Something I’d never thought about as I wrote was that it could possibly impact the approach someone might take during his/her divorce. If God will use this book to help even one family avoid what mine went through, I will be eternally grateful. 

I hope you will listen to the rebroadcast of the first Closer Than Your Breath interview with Wendy.

Blessings to you and yours!

 
 
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I made a new friend the other day. We’ve had several wonderful conversations about our families, our faith, about Jesus, our Father God, the work of the Holy Spirit in our lives, the faithfulness they’ve shown us, and we’ve also shared some of our struggles in life.

Although we haven’t talked about it in detail, this friend obviously had something happen to her years ago that involved some sin that she hasn’t been able to put behind her. She’s told me several times that she did something that she was not proud of. She hasn’t been able to totally forgive herself because it continues to come up.

I get that. I’ve been there, too. We’re human. We struggle. We sin. And hopefully, we turn to Jesus, ask forgiveness and go forward. That’s what God calls us to do.

He calls us to freedom.

On this July 4th, Independence Day, I believe that God is calling us to really think about our spiritual freedom. He calls us to be independent, if you will, of the sins that we often opt to carry, regardless of the price Jesus paid for them on the Cross. His sacrifice set us free from our sins, totally separated us from them. As far as the east is from the west.

And He remembers them no more just as He calls us to do. If HE’S forgotten our sins, how dare we continue to remember them, call them up, rehearse them and continue to talk about them.

He has set us free and to honor Him and His death and resurrection, we are to walk in that freedom, that total and complete separation and independence from the past that the enemy of our souls would love to continue to rub in our faces!

Today, celebrate in a MASSIVE way, the spiritual freedom that you have been given. If you’ve confessed your sins to Jesus, YOU HAVE BEEN SET FREE! When you see those fireworks tonight, see them as a sign from Him that the work is done. The sin and all its effects are over and behind you. He remembers them no more.

He is celebrating this liberty. It’s time for us to do the same.

“Whom the Son has set free is free INDEED!”

“He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound.”

“He has removed our sins as far from us as the east is from the west.”

 
 
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Twenty seven years ago today I was as busy as I could be. First I was in the throes of labor, then busy giving birth and THEN, wonder of wonders and the best present ever in my life, I was holding my precious firstborn daughter in my arms…and most of all, in my heart!

Never in ten million years or more could I have ever imagined the pain that we would face some 16 years later. It was an attack of utter destruction on our family called divorce that I would never have thought possible.

Seven years ago, the Holy Spirit told my husband, Doc, that at age 26 my firstborn would experience a healing that would draw her back to me. He said we would be restored as the mother and daughter that God intended. That was way too many years to wait for me but I’ve learned that some things just take time and patience and continued prayer and hope.

So here we are. Today my now-grown “baby” is turning 27. Just as He told Doc, after nearly 11 years of struggling, God is doing a mighty work in both of us! She has experienced healing in the past few months that has been a very long time coming, and so have I. My heart is filled with a joy that I many times despaired that I would never experience again. There were far too many of those fetal position times when sixty seconds was way to long for me to fathom…much less years…without my child.

As we celebrate her birthday today, I also celebrate the rebirth of our relationship. I can hardly wait to see what God has ahead for us as we continue to grow and heal together and separately.

I celebrate once again, in some ways even more so than I did 27 years ago, this day!

If you are in a strained or even broken relationship with your child, I want to give you Hope! Yes, it may take longer than you want because of that thing called free will, but do not give up and do not give in. Satan may try to convince you that healing will never happen but God gave you that child because He wants you together and He will do all possible to restore and revive what He intended.

Regardless what it may look like “in the natural”, God’s plans are for you and your child to prosper in your relationship. His plans are for you to have a wonderful future together…superabundant more than you can ask or imagine. Continue to go forward in your life as you wait, but do not give up hope.

“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.”

Happy Birthday, Baby Girl!

I love you,

Momsie

 
 
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What a thrill it is to talk with the most fun, blessed, and interesting people all across the country as the words of Hope spread from Closer Than Your Breath

Last week I taped an interview with the soon-to-be-inducted into the 2014 Broadcasters Hall of Fame, Jan Markowitz. Jan is the Program and Music Director of WNPQ...and the the afternoon host. As you prepare your Independence Day celebration, take time to listen to our chat together. 

Show date - Friday July 4th
Show time - 1:30pm Eastern
Station - The Light 95.5 FM (WNPQ/New Philadelphia, OH)
Web Listen - www.thelight959.com


Update!
Here is the audio from the interview


 
 
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We released Closer Than Your Breath to radio media yesterday. The press release was picked up by All Access, an industry specific news site. 

Here is the link to the article [click here].  You may have to create an account to see it--it is free. 

If you don't want to do that, the article is pictured to the left and the text is pasted below.

Thanks to Joel Denver for picking up the story and printing it. I pray that many radio people will see it and want to know more about the Hope and Healing in Closer Than Your Breath. (join me)

Former SALEM RADIO NETWORK rep BETH COOK MARANVILLE, who just happens to be married to WESTWOODONE VP/Programming TIM MARANVILLE, releases her first book, "Closer Than You Breath." The book is about one woman's struggle with a good ol' boy Southern divorce, the finality of death, the throws of financial loss, and the struggle with the powerlessness of family-member addiction.

"Closer Than Your Breath" is BETH’s first book. Soon to be released is "1200 Words," pages taken from her years of newspaper columns and other publications. She is also working on her first novel, "Keepin’ House," a story about livin’ in the SOUTH -- and the “surprises” that came with it.

"Closer Than Your Breath" is available on CREATESPACE, AMAZON, KINDLE and INKLINGS BOOK STORE. BETH is available for interviews or to speak hope to your group or organization. Contact her at www.closerthanyourbreath.com.

 
 
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I LOVE to hear how people are moved by Closer Than Your Breath. As I read the comments, I think what a blessing it is to have been able to share such an intimate part of my life and how healing it is to see others finding hope in the words.

If you have read the book PLEASE leave a review of it on Amazon. Honest reviews help others with their decision to include the book on their bookshelves. Help spread the word of the healing power by posting a review. Here is an amazing review posted not to long ago: I am humbled by this story.

"Closer Than Your Breath" did as promised - gave me Hope! Divorce was part of a larger question and a larger pain for me.

For one who has always felt God loves me only on the all-too-rare occasions when I'm sure I've done right, and hates and turns away from me as I consistently fail to meet His standards, this book was a God-send, quite literally.


I don't mean to make this review about me, but I too hope that this may help someone else to read and hear the Voice that I heard speak throughout "Closer Than Your Breath".


Sad to say, a Jesus that is genuinely on our side in loving approval was a new concept for me.


I'd always known He covered my sins with His blood, knew I was commanded to pray without ceasing...yet I'd never really thought about Why, except from my own guilty perspective.


I'd never really thought of Him loving me, wanting me to talk to Him, because He wants a relationship with me! Amazing. Not only my worship, but my thoughts, hopes, fears, and absolute confidence. And all my love.


I've realized I've held myself aloof from Him because I knew I wasn't good enough for Him...isn't that silly?


He is the Healer and the Lover of my Soul! I am learning now to Run to Him. To Thank him from my whole heart, as I'd thank a Friend who forgives all my flaws, which He is. 


I am moving forward with my life, now, knowing He will direct my steps with love, My life has been Illuminated, my spirit set free and full of Hope. Thank You, Beth Cook Maranville!


Bailey McKay, 
Alpharreta, GA

 
 
PictureMarsha and me at Inklings!
I just could not believe it when I was told that Inklings, the amazing book store at Denver's Cherry Hills Community Church wants to carry Closer Than Your Breath on their shelves! Wow! What an honor!

If you live in Denver you will be interested to know that Inklings was named after a gathering of authors including J.R.R. Tolkien and C.S. Lewis. All proceeds from the sales directly support church ministry. 

Inklings offers a wide selection of Christian books, music, cards, gifts and more. Inklings carries various Cherry Hills Community Church resources, including their own worship music recordings and audio sermons by Senior Pastor, Shane Farmer.

If you live in the Denver area, please stop by this beautiful worship center to pick up your very own copy of Closer Than Your Breath. 

p.s. I signed every copy in the store.